CHARLOTTE Dawson has broken her silence on whether she’ll get back together with fiance Matt Sarsfield after he sent racy messages to another woman.
The Celebrity Ex On The Beach star has spoken in detail of her ordeal for the first time on her podcast.
Charlotte, 31, revealed she discovered he was sending secret texts to another girl when her manager phoned her to say the story was being sold to the press.
The star was told Matt had been sending “indecent images” and she said her world totally crumbled.
The mum-of-two found out hours before their son’s birthday party and she told Matt not to attend.
She also ordered him to pack a bag and leave their home and he moved back in with his parents.
Speaking on whether they still had a future together, she said: “I don’t know if I’d ever trust him again …
“I don’t want a broken home. I never asked for this. I asked for loyalty and respect. Obviously I haven’t got that.
“I don’t know … everything is foggy.”
The influencer said fans have been wading in on what she should do.
Charlotte added: “I get all sorts, ‘if you take him back you’re a mug, he’ll do it again’.
“And then ‘I get others saying, they’d been through it and managed to get through it and they’re better than ever now’.
“But you’ve got to act on it. You can’t let them get away with it.
“If we were to sort things out – I haven’t got a clue what I’m going to do at the moment – then we’d have to get the help … but a part of me is like, ‘will he do it again?'”
Charlotte admitted nothing is clear to her right now about what she wants, but that Matt hasn’t stopped messaging her and is firm on wanting to fix it.
She said he is still living with his mum and dad, and he’s “absolutely broken”.
Speaking in the latest episode of her podcast, Naugty Corner she went on: “One minute I’m a psycho, one minute I’m happy, one minute I’m sad, one minute I miss him, one minute I just want to go back to normal.
“Me and Matthew just feel like it’s a nightmare and we (want) to wake up.
“That’s how we feel, both of us. It’s hard because obviously he’s not given up on the relationship, he’s trying to speak to me every day.
“I’ve blocked him a million times. I used to block him when I lived with him.
“I need a bit more space, I’ve not had that space yet.”
Charlotte revealed their relationship had been under strain for two years after she became a mum.
Raising their two sons, Noah and Jude, left her tired all the time and she admitted she resented Matt because his life didn’t seem to change as much.
He’d go to the gym, while she took care of the kids’ daily needs like feeding and getting them dressed.
Thought Matt would come on to her, she admitted she was usually too tired to reciprocate.
Charlotte thinks they fell into a rut and Matt has told her he was drunk when he sent the messages and doens’t remember sending them.
Meanwhile, she said he’s been messaging and calling and begging to get back with her and doesn’t want to lose his family.
Charlotte went on: “He’s broke my heart so much, he’s literally tore my heart out and stamped on it.”
She added: “He could not be trying at all, he really is trying. And he’s quite stubborn, so I’m a bit shocked. But it’s black and white, he can’t escape it. He can’t really get away from it.
“And I think he’s embarrassed for me. He’s upset for me and my career”.
Here is her emotional statement in full.
In a message posted on Instagram she said: “I’ve had loads of messages regarding mine and Matthew’s relationship and I wanted to just be honest with all of you as I navigate through this.
“I was in complete shock and devastated.
“Whilst so many of you have been kind and caring, there have been a number of people that have said I’ve sold this story for money.
“This is completely fales and I would never do this to my family or myself.
“The story was sold by the girl and I have no idea who she is.
“I’m extremely hurt, upset and disappointed about the situation.
“It’s hard enough going through something like this in private, let alone publicly.
“My only focus right now is on my beautiful boys as they are my main priority.
“Thank you to everyone who has shared their love and support. It doesn’t go unnoticed.”
Charlotte, 31, has been engaged to her partner Matt Sarsfield since September 2020.
