BEING a new parent can be tough but one woman’s struggles have her questioning her new role.
The young mother anonymously shared an insight into her post-partum life.
In a post on the online parenting forum What To Expect, user Beei95 discussed her apprehensions about her new chapter in life.
The poster explained that while she loves her daughter she does not feel particularly maternal after giving birth.
She described her surprise at the epiphany before outlining her experience in the initial months of parenthood.
“I’ve come to the daunting realization that I really just dislike motherhood,” the unnamed woman wrote.
She clarified that she loves her baby “so so so much” but still faced doubts about her new life.
“I’ll spend her naps just looking at her pictures because I’m obsessed with her but I really don’t like being a mom,” she said.
The young woman explained that she “can’t find any joy in” her new role as a mother.
“It just feels like a tiring job that never ends,” she wrote.
She described how torn she felt between her love for her daughter and her dislike for being a parent.
“I’m so grateful for my daughter but miss my old life,” the mom explained.
“I keep feeling like once she starts walking and talking and being a little more independent, I’ll enjoy it more.”
However, she shared her concern that time won’t solve her lack of interest in being a mother.
She added that she had always wanted to have kids and was thrown by her feelings.
“All I’ve ever wanted to be is a mom so this is so hard for me to process,” she said.
The new mom also revealed her envy of other new moms who adapt so easily.
“I’m so jealous of those women who say they love motherhood and it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to them,’ she said.
Other members of the online parenting forum shared their own experiences.
“I feel this. I love my daughter to my core. I can’t imagine my life without her now but I do mourn the life I used to have,” wrote one reader.
“Totally get this. I adore my children but in absolutely no way am I cut out to be a stay-at-home mom,” said another woman.
“I love my kids, I love being a stay-at-home mom but 75% of the time I’m ready to rip my hair out, sell my kids to the circus, and run away,” commented a third person.
