A MUM who took her own life on railway tracks after suffering years of abuse by her ex wrote “I was murdered” in a tragic final note, a court heard.
Kiena Dawes, 23, also said her former partner Ryan Wellings, 30, had “killed me” before she died on a railway track in Lancashire.
Jurors heard the mum was repeatedly subjected to controlling and coercive behaviour at her ex’s hands.
Wellings is also accused of violently abusing Kiena over a number of years – including a final assault just 11 days before she ended her life.
The court heard the pair had been in an “intense” relationship for two years that was plagued by alleged abuse.
Kiena had been diagnosed with an Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, which caused increased impulsivity, poor self-esteem and difficulty in relationships.
Jurors heard Wellings exploited her condition, which played a part in the hairdresser’s decision to end her own life.
He would allegedly accuse Kiena of sleeping with other people, branded her a “s**g”, threw a stool at her and told her to kill herself.
On one occasion, jurors heard he tried to strangle her with a charger cable and also smashed up the flat they both shared.
On July 22, 2022, Kiena drove to a friend’s home and let herself in while the pal was in the shower.
She then left her nine-month-daughter inside along with a so-called suicide note.
This read: “The end. I fought hard, I fought long. I went through pain no one could imagine.
“I was murdered. Ryan Wellings killed me. He ruined every bit of strength I had left. I didn’t deserve it.
“I hope my life saves another by police services acting faster. Don’t let bullies live free.”
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Kiena then apologised to her daughter for having to “let you go” and told how the world had “turned their back on me”.
She said she hoped the baby would be “kept away from the monster who is called her dad”.
Kiena, from Fleetwood in Lancashire, travelled to a country lane and was later struck by a high-speed train.
Wellings denies manslaughter, assault and controlling and coercive behaviour.
The trial continues.
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