CHARLOTTE Dawson has revealed her fiance Matt Sarsfield has been begging her to take him back during emotional phone calls.
The reality TV star, 32, says her ex has been left “broken” after his dirty texts to another woman were exposed.
Charlotte says he’s desperate to keep their family together after she chucked him out of the home they share with their two kids.
The emotional mum told Charlotte Dawson’s Naughty Corner: “I don’t want a broken home.
“I didn’t ask for this. I just asked for loyalty and respect and obviously I didn’t get that. It’s tough because I don’t know whether I’ll ever be able to forgive him again.”
Devastated Charlotte discovered her fiance Matt had sent “dirty “indecent images” to another woman behind her back.
Speaking for the first time about his indiscretion Charlotte said: “He rings me and he says ‘please, please, please speak to me’ and I said ‘I’m absolutely done with you, I don’t get why you would do this to me, why would you hurt me like this?’
“It’s so hard. Whatever decision I make, people have got such an opinion.
“It’s made me feel like a piece of s***.”
Breaking down in tears, Charlotte says: “I don’t know why he’s done it. He’s got everything.
“There’s been a lack of communication, we just don’t talk. There’s been a few things I’ve been upset about but I’m so laid back, I just let it slide.
“We fell into this rut. I’m mortified he would do that. I would never have him down to do something like that.
“He says he was drunk and he’s just so sorry, he wants to get help. Obviously he’s messaging and calling me, we have to speak because of the children.
“He says he’s so sorry and I don’t like the word ‘begging’, but he doesn’t want to lose his family over this.
“And I’m like, ‘well you did this… why would you put me in this position if you love me so much?'”
“The hard bit is that no one sees us behind closed doors. I still love him. I still fancy him even though I want to chop his todger off.
Here's how Charlotte and Matt's relationship has played out
November 2016 – Charlotte and Matt meet shortly after she splits from a short-lived fling with Geordie Shore’s Gaz Beadle.
February 2017 – The couple split for the first time just before Valentine’s Day over Charlotte’s party lifestyle.
July 2017 – While filming Celebs Go Dating, Charlotte is told she is ‘sabotaging herself’ and she admits it’s because she was struggling to get over Matt.
September 2017 – Charlotte jets to Greece after splitting from CGD castmate Frankie Cocozza.
December 2017 – Charlotte and Matt reveal they are back together.
March 2018 – Charlotte admits to The Sun that she ‘couldn’t stay away’ from Matt, with the couple also moving in together.
October 2018 – The couple look loved up while on holiday together in Spain.
August 2020 – Charlotte reveals she is pregnant with her and Matt’s first baby together.
September 5, 2020 – Matt proposes to Charlotte next to the statue of her late father, Les Dawson.
January 26, 2021 – Charlotte gives birth to their first baby boy. She later announces his name is Noah, with the entire birth being filmed for reality show Celebrity Bumps.
February 2022 – Matt, Charlotte and Noah move into their brand new family home in Lancashire.
April 2022 – Charlotte reveals she’s tragically suffered a miscarriage.
February 2023 – Charlotte announces she’s pregnant with her second baby with Matt.
July 30, 2023 – Charlotte gives birth to her second baby boy, who she later reveals is called Jude.
October 2023 – Baby Jude is rushed to hospital after contracting RSV bronchitis, and has to remain in hospital for ‘a few days’
February 2024 –Baby Jude is readmitted into hospital after contracting bronchitis for a second time at seven months old.
August 3, 2024 – Charlotte left ‘devastated and humiliated’ after finding ‘dirty texts’ on Matt’s phone to another woman.
August 4, 2024: Charlotte throws Jude his first birthday party, with Matt notably not in attendance.
August 5, 2024: Charlotte breaks her silence, saying she is extremely hurt, upset and disappointed by the news. She says her children remain her top priority.
“It’s really tough. I’m up and down like a bloody yo-yo. I just wish it had never happened.
Charlotte added: “I don’t know where I’m at with my head in it. One minute I’m psycho, one minute I miss him.
“Me and Matthew think it’s a nightmare and we just want to wake up from it.
“I’ve got to do what’s right for me. I need a bit more space. I’ve not had that much space yet, it’s still very raw.”
